sooooo tired of all the freaking sweat.

Im gonna have to wash my sheets again today. Did that yesterday and it about did me in.

Oy and the pills.

dexamethazone keeps the swelling in my head down = no more headaches. this little bastard is also the one that makes me sweat so damn bad. yuck

zantac (ranitidine sp?) helps keep all the ulcers away from my tummy which Ive had to cut back. at my last appt they told me I was taking far too many. oopsie. THey also make me tired. all the damn time. and I suspect these little beauties are the cause for my sore throats. lovely and the fact that I feel like I have growing pains in my damn legs again today.

adavan - I call this my teeny little happy pill. Anxiety be gone. And it usually is after this little sucker.

imovane - my majic little blue pill. the adavan helps me fall asleep, the imovane is supposed to KEEP me asleep. raaaahahaha. not so much. I still wake up usually about 5 am in a full soaked sweat, and thats my night. At least Im not up 10 times to use the damn washroom like i normally do. lol

today it was a 2 am wakeup call today. started reading eclipse again in the damn middle of the night to make myself tired again. which did work. only had to read until 4 am. I'll pay for this today though.

oh, YAY. Twilight is on tv. think I'll watch that until the natives wake up for school.

'concent for treatment'appt tomorrow morning with all the big doctors. *sigh* gonna try real hard to keep anxiety in check today. hopefully a decent night sleep tonight, although im already pretty sure thats not gonna happen.

have a lovely day everyone.

fRIENDS..WHAT IS WRONG WITH SOME PEOPLE?

OWHILE i WAS IN THE HOSPITAL FOR TWO WEEKS, i HAD MORE VISITORS THAN iVE SEEN ALL YEAR LONG. SINCE iVE BEEN HOME, NO ONE. eXCEPT MY BESTIE cHRITINA AND HER HUB tONY. lOVE THEM. <3

i GET THAT PEOPLE WORK AND WHAT NOT, BUT i HAVE A FRIEND FROM WORK WHO HAS BEEN PROMISING ME A VISIT FOR WEEKS NOW. shE SAID SHE WAS OFF YESTERDAY AND TODAY AND WOULD BE BY YESTERDAY. SHE NEVER SHOWED. MANY UN ANSWERED TEXTS LATER AND IM MORE THAN A LITTLE ANNOYED. IF YOU CANT MAKE IT, FOR FRIG SAKE, MAN UP AND CALL ME SO I DONT SIT HERE ALL DAY WAITING FOR YOU TO SHOW UP. i DO HAVE A DAMN PHONE PEOPLE.

i HAVE A SMALL SMIDGE OF ENERGY TODAY. HAVE MADE MY LUNCH, AND THROWN THE BED SHEETS IN THE WASH. THESE DAMN STERIODS MAKE ME SWEAT LIKE A STUCK PIG. GROSS. I CANT EVEN STAND MYSELF AT NIGHT. LOL I TOSS AND TURN. WHAT I WOULDNT GIVE FOR A DECENT NIGHT SLEEP. IM SO TIRED ALL THE TIME.

FRIDAY ONCE THE KIDS GET ON THE BUS, THE HUB AND I HAUL ASS TO KINGSTON FOR MY 'CONCENT TO TREATMENT' APPT AT 10 AM. i AM SO INCREDIBLY ANXIOUS TO GET ALL THIS SHIT STARTED AND TREATMENTS STARTED. ITS GONNA BE A LOOOONG ROAD, AND I KEEP TRYING TO IND MY POSITIVITY EACH AND EVERY DAY. iTS HARD SOMETIMES THOUGH.

K, SO